why is it when you go somewhere you used to work/volunteer at and it tears your heart apart because it reminds you of the past when you were loved, and happy but now you feel unwanted, useless, unloved, sad, and empty on the inside and you find yourself trying to smile but in reality you are torn apart on the inside having an endless battle with yourself even though you know you have lost the war long ago. Ps my mood right now is a cross between and just wanting to hear an angel`s voice that will never be heard again.